My Problem Isn’t That I’m Boring…

I don’t party, I don’t hang out with a massive amount of people, I don’t like most people, and in the graced quote of Nick Simmons, I find that most people aren’t worth getting along with. I am however, completely restless.

I can’t stand being where I’m at as far as jobs go. I work retail, and I hate it. I hate the rude, snotty customers, the lies they spill, and the ass kissing corporation I work for. We have very understanding individuals, but these are people who have actually been where I am - they’ve been behind the service counter or behind they have operated the register. They get it, when most folks don’t. These are the people I enjoy, and the people I can joke around with and the people who will listen if I’m just not having the best day because it’s been full of shitty coworkers or shitty customers - but they never retaliate “Well, that’s your job” because they FUCKING. GET. IT. They know I’m trying to escape, they don’t feel the need to point out the obvious.

Nobody really wants to spend their life in retail, but very few individuals have enough drive, motivation and determination to escape it - because they’re too busy spending their money on booze, partying or whatever else is meaningless in life. I however, am one of those people who will not waste their life on such a mediocre ‘career’. I don’t have money because I reinvest it into the several fascinations of my life. Horses, as I’m going to start training next month. Photography, as I am a photographer who is quickly growing a client base. Make up, because while I hardly ever wear makeup, I love doing makeup, and I’m good at it.

People always make the comment to me that I’m talented. Am I really? Maybe I am, I don’t know - but I think it has more the desire to master the skill that has allowed me to progress so quickly in the several factors of my life. I could end up training horses, shooting photos and making faces until the day I die, and I would be as happy as a clam. These windows are opening up for me, while my coworkers, bosses, etc. are stuck in their lives, completely numb to the fact that they are the masters of their own lives.

I am PROUD of the work I do with make up, photos and horses… I can’t say I’m exactly proud to proclaim that I am a ‘team member’ at a store that is more cliquey than high school, a boss I loathe, and a store that has made over 3 million dollars in the last six months and easily tops 5 digit numbers PER DAY in sales, when I am lucky to get a paycheck of $300.

I will never settle for less then what I want, and that’s the reason I will never fit in with today’s society, and for this reason I am labeled boring, a loner, an outcast - when really, I’m just restless, and I won’t stop resting until I have a better, happier life!

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For the first time in three years..

I finally feel like myself again.

Finally.

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